Tuesday, November 11, 2003

i'm in the milk and the milk's in me

Well, i did it. I was a little disappointed, to tell you the truth. I was expecting more. More visuals, possibly hallucinations. I was really looking forward to the hallucinations. I consider myself a visual person, and so i was kind of curious to see what visions my subconscious could throw out, without filtering through the censorship of the conscious. Do you iunderstand? Anyway, that was kind of what i was expecting. Whether that's what really happens or not, that was what i was expecting.

I did notice at one point that my friend's head began to move strangely as he was talking. Kind of a rubbery oscillating wobble. It went away when i tried to concentrate on what he was saying instead of what his head was doing. I think, though, that that wsa one of those situations where you realize (or notice) all the strange, unconscious gestures that people make as they talk. Do you ever do that? So, it was less a hallucination than a realization, a noticing. Noticing what was already there rather than hallucinating from your mind.

We might not have taken enough. It varies widely and my friend wasn't sure of the dose system the people who gave it to him were using. Lots of variables. So we're probably going to do it again. Larger dose this time. Set and Setting. We'll see what happens. I'll keep you posted.

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