Oh, that?

that's the little sound that lets you know you're traveling silently.

what is it? it makes no sense!

MJ/FISH, 09-24-04
i THINK EVERYONE SHOULD PUT GOD FIRST!!! dO THAT AND EVERYTHING WILL GO ACCORDING TO PLAN!!! :-)


here in context. (explains nothing)

finals week again

so that means communication will be intermittent for a while. Or maybe more mittent than ever, considering i gotta work till i finish both these projects, then write a speech...i feel like i'm doing twenty things at once. i am on avout twenty different kinds of drugs at once; coffee, sugar, vitamins, weed, endorphins...

maybe i should have a little thing in the sidebar. Like some people have- 'now listening to'- mine could be- 'what drugs am i on'. little checkboxes or something.

haiku

can a computer make you cry?
i leave you this-
save early, save lots

here it is again

stumbling around the house, doing at least three assignments simultaneously. It's all gotta get done, because we're going to burning man this thursday. hopefully i'll have some stories for you from that. But for now, it's basically just like finals week. though that's yet to come.

mystery of the day

what is it?

the howl of spam

eeoc albumin seahorse.



financial boletus beet leaven emancipate touchstone changeable.



basophilic spidery men teething magisterial foxtailconceal bologna

guanidine esposito.



dont want anymore extrahelp24.info/sv/chair.php

it's just that i've been real busy lately. It seems like everything is coming to a head. It's weird. Next time i have a free morning, i'll let you know what's been going on. If i ever have any free time again.

hi just checking in

it's going to be a weird week

i got three projects coming due. I haven't done any of them because it was my birthday this weekend and,
well, you know.
So i should work on them, right? Surprise, my mom comes up to visit. Oh boy, now i gotta take care or her too. How will i get everything done? Certainly not by writing blogs. I'll be 'extending time' a lot this week i think.

do not enter any area where you see smoke or flames

sage advice from the fire safety map.

there's no way to do it wrong, which is part of the reason it's so hard to do it right

poetry

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it's poetry from spam, again.

When you're young you have addictions. Because you can. You let things have you, for awhile. To see what it's like, see if you find anything that calls to you. And then, you see if they're worth enough to you to... to essentially forsake all of that and have a normal life. A normal's life.

should i just combine the game and drug blogs together?

the intersection of drugs and games. Is it a good idea? is it original? what would it be called?

sometimes when you're high it seems like we live in the best of all possible worlds. Everything is as much itself as it could possibly be.

society offers outlets for impulses too dangerous to be acted out in person

they're called games.

you know they've got you if you have to say their slogan

keep that in mind

Hey! why not combine the two!

the basic idea when stoned.

We're not sure that it's alive, but it deserves to be!

/SEXUALLY-EXPLICIT-The Thrill Hammer!

more poetry from my spam folder.

i'd like a deodorant that smells like gin

and a perfume that smells like coffee.

i think we're a little too constrained in terms of smell here in America. There is so much more we could be doing.

going to make a new blog

a blog about games. As i'll be starting school soon, going for a game art degree. i think that it might be kind of interesting for people to see what's entailed in getting a degree in games.

as soon as i think up a cool name, i'll of course link to it here. this will remain the drug blog.

vanished into the ether

it's like i didn't exist. i saw it there, but not only did nobody respond, someone made the same point later on! Hello! Hey! can you hear me.

this is really sad. Too sad to post. Thus...

*hits publish*

episode 21 of Start-Up -the series

"Hmm... They're not responding to our cheaply-produced banner ads."

"Perhaps we should add some clip art, sir"

"great idea, Kesworth! See to it at once."

it's like dreaming

it's like dreaming

The Invisible Wall & The Invisible Path

telluric mines

poetry from spam

chemic bismarck rosenblum klystron limestone

OxUxT http://www.yarrierguy.com/remove QNJ sqpdnnt gycqzb dispensable squeezebarley midway uttdnum fvdqe kato

and of course there's more to the music that i never noticed before

or maybe it's that i can pick out all the individual layers in the music and 'see' them separately. Different instruments and what they're each doing.

but that's classic. just classic. textbook stuff, everybody knows that

i tell you eash tiny task is charged with significance

i can't remember what i was going to say

but i'm sure it was very wise.

that's the essence of the experience right there.

full of the 'ness'-ness of everything

by the way, i stiill don't think i'm doin enough thingds simultaneously. i should have some music playing.

and now, ladies and gentlemen, please welcome... the nihlistic technofetishists

ive decided that when i'm in a band, it will be named the nihilistic technofetishists

i've been thinking a lot about a concept that people use a lot of different words for. i'm calling it the mental refuge. What it is- it's the need to be alone. the need to have a quiet place in your head where you can think unclutteredly. It can be time or it can be space.

It's hard to explain, probably because it's so close... to my heart? it's hard to explain.

it's the concept of a safe house or a haven or a sanctuary. Once you become sensitized to it, you're surprised how often you encounter the word 'safe'. It's been on my mind a lot lately. Quiet has a lot to do with it too, for me mostly. Probably because the neighborhood here is so fucking loud all the time it's hard to think.

Some people don't seem to need it.

i am incredibly lit right now.

the mental refuge

This is the absolute first thing you must do: bathe.

article on getting a job in the comics industry at a convention. depressing but funny.

here

what the heck was that?

creativity is easy

just go one level up. Come up with three different ways to go 'one level up' in the area you're working in

Theivery Corporation- encounter in bahia

a wet, round, plocking sort of beat. More music should be wet.

Theivery Corporation- encounter in bahia

a wet, round, plocking sort of beat. More music should be wet.

Theivery Corporation- encounter in bahia

a wet, round, plocking sort of beat. More music should be wet.

Theivery Corporation- encounter in bahia

a wet, round, plocking sort of beat. More music should be wet.

Theivery Corporation- encounter in bahia

a wet, round, plocking sort of beat. More music should be wet.

Theivery Corporation- encounter in bahia

a wet, round, plocking sort of beat. More music should be wet.

Theivery Corporation- Encounter in Bahia

a wet, round, plocking sort of beat. More music should be wet.

Theivery Corporation- Encounter in Bahia

a wet, round, plocking sort of beat. More music should be wet.

Theivery Corporation- Encounter in Bahia

a wet, round, plocking sort of beat. More music should be wet.

Theivery Corporation- Encounter in Bahia

a wet, round, plocking sort of beat. More music should be wet.

Theivery Corporation- Encounter in Bahia

a wet, round, plocking sort of beat. More music should be wet.

Theivery Corporation- Encounter in Bahia

a wet, round, plocking sort of beat. More music should be wet.

Theivery Corporation- Encounter in Bahia

a wet, round, plocking sort of beat. More music should be wet.

Theivery Corporation- Encounter in Bahia

a wet, round, plocking sort of beat. More music should be wet.

we are here to help each other get through this thing, whatever it is

Dr. Vonnegut said this to his doddering old dad: “Father, we are here to help each other get through this thing, whatever it is.” So I pass that on to you. Write it down, and put it in your computer, so you can forget it.


great post by Kurt Vonnegut

its a circle vol. 65536

Mars is the god of war-Mars is the red planet-iron is red- iron is the tool of war

i know there are new templates

but i like this one. it's ugly and green.

its summer

im going to have time to work on my comic. And time to procrastinate working on my comic.

REZ-Mid Night High Shooting

"I cannot over-emphasise the overall quality of Giant Gram 2000. It may be the most quality title I have ever played:"
REZ

This is a truly great game. A legendary shooter on the level of Tempest. No kidding. My Dreamcast was stolen so i can't play it anymore. i miss it. They made a PS2 version, but they printed so few of them, that the game did badly and as a resut is even more rare. You can get them (REZ), but they're about fifty bucks. Should i do it? i don't have much money, but i miss it so.

comics renaissance

Someone finally figured it out. How to get comics to break through to a more generalized audience. They've always been a kind of creative ghetto, and partly because of the places they've been sold. The comic book store. The 7-eleven spinning wire comics rack. Hey Kids! Comics! and a picture of Jughead. That's the problem. Not so much a problem really (i love comic book stores, but you know, not everyone does), but preventing their widespread growth. Well, that and the stories and art, but Sturgeon's Law- Ninety precent of everything is crap.

Ninety percent of movies are crap, but that doesn't stop little kids, old people, soccer moms and all kinds of people from going to the theater, does it? So where's the problem? It's the delivery system. It's the way they are sold.

There's a new channel for comics now. One that everyone has access to and no one's afraid to go in. Bookstores. Big bookstores. Bear with me for a minute-this is important. Once comics got made into books, bookstores would carry them. That simple. Once they're no longer these floppy cheap things with only 20 pages in them, they now have access to the high-end delivery channels. And that will change people's opinions about them. Seeing them in that place.

Comics have been seeking a wider audience, seeking respect for years now, but they never really got it. In the 80's they tried something called 'graphic novels' (actually, they started calling big regular comics 'graphic novels'). The idea was sound- more mature stories, better art, better paper to put the art on. The problem was they were still selling them through comic book stores, and so the wider audience they were trying to reach never encountered them in the first place. Distribution channels.

Someone figured it out. Who? Viz comics did it. Tokyopop, Dark Horse, those guys. See, here's how it happened. Over in Japan, comics really do have a widespread acceptance. And so there's all these different kinds of comics, some of which would probably go over pretty well in the States. So they want to bring them over. But the distribution system is different in Japan, and because of this, the books are in different formats. Usually they're longer (as a result of this, they have become better- having more space means you can have deeper stories. You don't have to wrap everything up in 20 pages) Also, usually in Japan, comics are written and drawn by the same person as opposed to a writer, a penciler, an inker, a colorist, and a letterer. Can you see how this would make for better stories?

So at first the importer-publishers were trying to sell the Japanese comics in an American format. They've been trying since around the early nineties. The first one i remember seeing, Mai the Psychic Girl, came out in 1989. But they never really made it big. The stories were chopped up. They were published monthly, so you had to get all of them to have the full story, crap like that. So they started publishing them in a sort of small book, about 200 pages, nice paper, color cover, but bound like a book. (not like a movie by the Wachowski bros.) Like they originally appeared in Japan. The format the stories were structured around. So now they could sell them in bookstores. And they did.


And they sold really well. Here's the proof- the diversity of their line. The fact that there are girls comics. Comics for girls, think about that. There haven't been comics for girls since way back in the first flowering of comics, with the teen romance and Millie the Model type stuff that Marvel Comics started out publishing. (oh, dirty secret!) And then they disappeared. But look at all the girls comics there are now:
Peach Girl
Sailor Moon
MARS
Rev. girl Utena
Magic Knight Rayearth
All the Clamp stuff
Flowers & Bees

And that's just looking at my shelf.
There were always girls comics in Japan.

You may not like these comics, but that's kind of the point- there's enough diversity out there for there to be stuff that's just not your bag. This is great. In creative endeavors, you need as much diversity as you can get. Keeps you from getting stagnant.

Here's the sad part. It's all Japanese comics. Much as i love Japanese comics, i'd like to see more American creators get widespread recognition. American comics artists are doing incredible stuff, but not really seeing big success. It's the distribution channel that needs to be fixed.
First American company that does this- Well, think about it. It'd be like opening up a whole new market. Liscence to Print. Money.
And i like to think that with more space for deeper stories and better paper for nicer looking art, that the stories would get better. Then we'd have a true comics renaissance.

The Negative Zone

great articel about comics


"We 1970s kids couldn't have been issued a clearer message: we'd missed the party."

okay i remember

just a sort of update- got two out of three things mostly done. the third thing now is 50 anatomical drawings. Whoo. i'm a big procrastinator. but thats how i get other stuff done. putting off the big things. i'm just going to do as many as i can with th time i have left. he's a good teacher and won't flunk me for inclompleteness. and i've showed up for class almost every day which is more than i can say for some.

heres his website. look at his stuff, it's great and we're really lucky to be learning from him.Vince Perez

that's what i'm doing pretty much all day today. gotta go to class in the evening and then come home and work some more. might blog an all-nighter, but i hope not.

slowing down time

doing it again. Just one more day till everything is due. Time is going slowly anyway but i just helped it along.

oh yeah, like i was talking about before, about liking to time things? remember?

Songs! songs are a great way to time things. especially mp3s where you can see exaclty how long a song is. sometimes ill load up a ten minute song, because i want to do something for only ten minutes. Sometimes i'll load up a bunch of songs totaling approximately a half hour or an hour. Then when it repeats i know about how much time has passed.

so anyway, to get back to what i was talking about before-what was it?

corned beef and cabbage

real easy, you just get one of those briskets in the bag at almost any supermarket, a head of cabbage and some cloves of garlic. Throw them all in the biggest pot you have, put in water to cover it all and cook the hell out of it. For hours. it's easy, you don't really have to watch it, just check to see the water doesn't all boil away, add more if it gets low.

You'll have food for a week. You'll be sick of it. but it's pretty good. What i had for dinner.

the time sense

lately i've found myself just obsessed with time.

How much do i have? When is this going to happen? it seems to be going fast, it seems to be going slow. Look how much of it has passed. oh wow is it still only 8:24?

i love using electronic timers. i like to have a real, concrete sense of time passing. An anchor to my time sense. A little lifeline that snaps you back into the regular flow. Speaking of timers, my food in in the microwave. i'll be right back. it beeped, but i don't know how long ago. See? i set it for 1 minute.

i just thought of a great name for a band: 'scream of consciousness' Cool, huh? i'm gonna go put it on MEMEHOSE and then continue eating dinner.

probably this wierdness is becauseof finals. i really do have until Wednesday to turn in three projects. Been staying up late working on stuff. So my time sense will already be a little skewed.

now the interesting think about cannabis is the time distortion effect- the warping of your time sense. Now this seems al little random usually, but- what if you could control it?

i remember- i wanted to mention that i've been using it to extend time in order to get more work done. perceptually at least. having mentioned it, i'll stop procrastinating and get to work.

boondoggle and pork

interesting discussion

also i just like to say 'boondoggle and pork'.

Piss-Soaked God's Eye

oh yeah

happy 4/20 everybody!

sometimes it seems to me that we do things better now than in the past. We have all this stuff.

but you know...

People in the past just did things harder. If they wanted to eat, they ordered everything on the menu. They wanted to drink, they drank. People were on cocaine or morphine all the time. Laudanum, all that shit.

to trick the brain/new taste sensations

In future, food scientists might use their understanding of how the brain reacts to food to design novel products, such as (drinks that taste cold even when at room temperature), says Zald. "You might be able to trick the brain," he says, to conjure up new taste sensations.

http://www.nature.com/nsu/040329/040329-19.html

What would an entirely new taste and texture sensation be like?

This is great. Exploring and pushing the limits of human experience. This is what philosophy and religion should be doing. But science is doing it instead.

On most hallucinogens, you can make things move if you stare at em for a bit

excellent discussion about mental effects of hallucinogens as well as effects of market forces on drug prices:

http://www.metafilter.com/mefi/32226

of course, i'm still going

This is what Burning Man is now

***

How Do I Get Licensed?

In order to be eligible for a Mutant Vehicle license, you must fulfill
these five criteria:

1. Think about, and tell us, WHY you want to bring a Mutant Vehicle to
Burning Man.
2. Comply with all DMV pre-registration guidelines and deadlines.
3. Include safety in your design considerations.
4. Honor your Black Rock citizenship and keep your commitments.
5. Fulfill your intent - create a Mutant Vehicle that is a highly
participatory, visually stimulating, and whimsically beautiful/surreal
contribution to Black Rock City.

Where Do I Start?

Pre-registration is the first step in the licensing process. Remember
-- it's mandatory! We can't consider your vehicle for a Mutant Vehicle
license without this step.

***



The revolutionaries always become the oppressors.

Your desires are communicated via beams of light

A form-fitting, hand-controlled, twenty-first century navigator, this device manipulates the Internet?s visual data field as the user moves through three- dimension cyberspace with the ease of air typing. Your desires are communicated via beams of light as optical reflectance ushers in a new era in human interface.

MEMEHOSE pt.1

"it's essential that these things be as close to free as possible"

last one was a winter recipe, season's changed, here's a summer recipe

leftover coffee from this morning (should be strong (concentrated (not concatenated)))

milk (about half the cup)

sugar (i like it a little sweeter when it's iced)

ice

you may have to stir it more to break up the sugar because it's cold


"Next time on 'Stoned Living'..."

I don't like byunbi [constipation]
I like kwaebyun [opposite of constipation]

When the sun shines, I run to the bathroom
The things I ate yesterday leave my body
Did you eat a chamwai [Korean pear]? Check! Matdongsan! [Korean snack]
Did you eat a watermelon? Check! Chocolate-chip cookie!
Did you have some milk? Check! Joripong! [Korean snack]

I don't like byunbi [constipation]
I like kwaebyun [opposite of constipation]

Good good, today I want to make
Pretty-shaped poo
Put some force into it! Check! Peanut!
Shake your hips! Check! Koolkwabaegi! [Korean snack]
Go round and round! Check! Onion ring!

Today too, be strong and push it out and excrete!

[End credit:] Until the day when everybody can start the morning with a kwaebyun [opposite of constipation] ...

this means a lot to me we heard that you wanted some V_alium . meadowsweet

All of life seems composed of poetry.

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Chicken Pickle!

it's the next big thing. You heard it here first.

new foods are good

While it might be disconcerting to some Americans to have bits of spine floating in your soup, i can assure you it is very tasty.

your presence has become a hindrance to my master's bloody scheme

Time Compression/Expansion (an option in ProTools)

i find the time compression effect to be useful sometimes. Sometimes like when you have a lot of work to do. i find it relaxes me and allows me the time to concentrate. Like now.

You always assume that the feelings that you're having right now are your 'real' feelings and any contradictory feelings you have had in the past were a delusion. Somehow 'not real.'

Salt- it makes everything saltier!

Today on "or, to put it another way..."

i deciphered an ancient text today, written in a dead language. When i was finally able to read the text, it was a picture of me from the past.


Today i was looking for an old floppy disk containing some short stories i had written. When i found the disk, i remembered i had made the disk on an old computer, before i got this current one. When i opened up the disk, the files were compressed in some weird Windows backup format. That the current (okay, new-er) version of Vindows i was running didn't recognize. Shit, how am i going to get to my stuff? Went to Google, searched for the string "reads .QIC files". Three or four people asking exactly my question. One answer was, go to (this software manufacturer (honest, i've forgotten already)) and download the free trial version of their multipurpose file backup software to read your files. i went to their site, they were trying to sell you full versions of their software, of course. i looked carefully for the 'free trial version' download. The link sent me to Downloads.com, who i infer they rent bandwidth from. i downloaded it, installed it, ran it (it said it had to restart my computer, but i didn't want to cancel the dial-up _and_ stop the music i was listening to, so i said restart later. Fooled you, computer!) fiddled around with it, and got my files. Then i uninstalled the program. Then i read my stories. They were very short, really just literary sketches or random thoughts. But they really gave a sense of me at a particular point in time. A snapshot.

Jungle Japes

televisation and its discontents

Today television is full of fat people weeping. Who would want to see this? Who thinks i would want to see this?

***
A uniquely American experience: being forced to bid on and buy something you don't want and could never use merely because of competition with other buyers.

***

"The official vehicle of golf"

***

It seems to me that all the commercials are ironic. But i don't think they are. that's the scary part. What if they're all serious? What if they mean what they say?

***

I couldn't stand it any more when i saw that they'd dressed up little kids to imitate celebritie's styles of dressing.

"What kids are wearing now"

"I think we'll be seeing more individuality this year"

flatus, epiglottis, posse comitatus.

Today is a busy day.

You can do anything!

thinking about ex-girlfriends

Hi, are you the same as you were?

Cause i'm not. But i kind of am.

i love this kind of day

kind of overcast, sometimes rainy. i'm all by myself, nowhere to go (for awhile at least), listening to the cool jazz music, having a cup of coffee and just relaxing, being creative...

i can grab a little bit of time.

a rainy day

i began to imagine that life had no meaning unless it were recorded in some way, either through art or media.

And how horrible that would be.

Because memory is faulty.

but subjective.

the master plan

Organized religion is a scheme concocted by evil martians & impressed on our culture from outside to divert our resources into wasteful, stagnant assets instead of...


nah, you know, greed just explains it better.

You know, that one

That clip where they pour on the sauce in commercials? It's common, so common that they gave a name to it. In ad-industry jargon, it's the 'money shot.'

Kitschy Cuisine

That's making food that appears to be another kind of food. Something it's not.

"It's a fluffy mousse... of chicken!"

the taste of chicken in the Matrix

i don't get why people say that chicken has no taste. "Everything tastes like chicken." It's got a taste. i can taste it now. The taste of chicken.

that was one of the great things about the Matrix. the first movie. Funny things about everyday life, things that everyone noticed- it had an explanation for. Everything tastes like chicken? That's because the machines couldn't decide what to make chicken taste like. Ever have deja vu? (remember the scene with the two black cats?) That means the machines have changed something in the world.

It had an 'entry point' for ordinary people. And that's kind of what i think was missing from the other two films in the series. (Though i love them.) i guess maybe they thought that the 'entry points' in the first film would last through the other two movies. But it seems maybe we need a new entry point for each movie.

The ironic thing about the Matrix (the concept) is that most interesting parts of the movie (the scenes in the Matrix) are fake. They are derided by the freedom fighters as evil. But, in movie terms, they're the best parts, what you're waiting for.

Brown Gravy

Hot Milk

Coffee (almost equal amounts)

shot of Frangelico (hazelnut liqueur)

Slanting the News, vol. XVI

Short cameramen make your subject appear taller, more charismatic. Taller cameramen can minimize people, make them appear less important. Use the appropriate camera crew for the bias you wish to assign.

straight time

Q: What does Andy Goldsworthy's country house look like? You know, if he has one. it's a hypothetical question. To make you think.

A: Like a totally wild acre or so of land, untouched by humans. BUT- every tree, plant, and stone has been pantakingly placed by the artist. It's an ongoing project- to make it appear as natural as possible


This isn't a very visual idea. maybe it'd work in a book, but definitely not a movie

money is evil, unless you have some

The last post seems like a real downer, but i'm really pretty excited about my classes. i only wish i had money. its a pain trying to choose between getting art supplies and paying bills. i kind of miss work that way. Also, when you're working, your free time is your own. At school, there's always homework and projects that need to be done.

Oh well, you can have time or money but not both.

sfumato

no mental explorations today. School has started and with it responsibility.

i'm excited about my classes. i'm taking an intro to film/video class where i'm hoping i can learn the editing software. i think editing might be really really fun. i'm very excited by the possibilities of editing. it might just be my thing, but i won't know till i do it.

and Barron Storey's sequential illustration class. Comics! yay!

no Illustration classes. (except that one) i'm thinking of changing my major, so i'm holding off taking any more in that sequence. Illustration is quite dull in my school. Illustration 1, then Illustration 2, then Illustration 3 and so on. No interesting class titles like the other majors get. i'm getting more turned off of the whole thing.It seems too limited now to me. i'm just not interested in editorial illustration, for magazines and the like.

Plus i got tired of teachers telling us illustration is dying, threatened by photography and clip art, the golden age was back in the twentieth century, pay scales haven't gone up in years, you have to aggressively market yourself, blah blah blah. i decided maybe to take them at their word and get the fuck out. Last couple of illustration teachers i had made the process of making art seem so... joyless. i don't know.