an observation from the normal state

one thing i've noticed is that there seems to be a pulse to the experience. A sort of rhythm. i see it in terms of opposites. Like an oscillation between two poles. I'll get a crashing wave of happiness, a sense that all's right with the world and things are going great, and then a little later that certain sinking feeling will come up. And it goes on like that, from one to the other, for the duration of the experience. i remember this happening from the very first times i did it. It's more noticeable if i'm alone. Then i can concentrate more on my inner mental state. Other people are a distraction. Other people are more fun, though. The nature of the experience depends on your surroundings. Set and setting, as they say.

Maybe this is something specific to me, but you know, this journal is about me and trying to make sense of my experiences of different mental states.